To Want No More

I hold my breath 

lungs craving for air 

wishing for a sip 

Internal drumming 

Throbbing 

Beating 

Slamming 

External calm  

I WANT 

I NEED

The thought has taken over 

Red ribbon flying in the wind,

caught by a branch—

       an angel’s hand restrains my longing.

I hold my breath 

Focus the thoughts 

Focused thoughts 

Trained mind 

Brain screams 

Screaming for help 

Brain trained to think 

Thoughts trained to consume 

Trained to have more than it deserves 

Trained to always want 

Punish the self by denying the want 

The want to need 

Needing to want, craving desire 

Constant need to have nothing 

Something 

I hold my breath 

starve the need 

Need to starve  

Humility, humanity 

…I hold my breath and await the day that I want no more. 

By: Taisja-Nicole ‘2024